Honesty is the best policy...right?

So, this is just Stephanie speaking this time. I just wanted to share what God has been teaching me this past week. Right now we have been going through classes that have challenged my thinking so much. I feel like I am at my wits end. My candle has been burning at both ends. When I think of everything that has been going on in our lives over the past month, I really am shocked that we're still chugging along. But at times like these it is when I realize I need God the most. I see that there is nothing in this life that I cannot do without the Lord's help. When I finally realize that I am at this point, it's usually been a while. This time has been so different though. I finally understand that it is times like this that God is revealing a small piece of himself to me in a whole new way. I was so sad that I couldn't grasp who God is and what He means to my life, but after this week, even though I still have a lot to learn, I am feeling so encouraged. God has been so faithful to come alongside me and teach me more and more each day who He is. I have a whole lot of head knowledge of who God is and what His character is but as for heart knowledge, I'm just now realizing, I have no clue who He is to me. I have been changing my heart towards each day. I have never prayed for God to get me though one day at a time but now I find myself waking up and praying that every morning and it has made such a difference. I have seen His love so much more clear and been able to love my husband and kids in a much better way because of it. I'm not writing this to discourage you or anything but I'm writing it out of joy. Joy because I have been growing so much and I just wanted to share that with all of you hoping that it may be an encouragement to someone who may need it. Ok I'm done blabbing now but I just wanted to share that with who ever is reading our blog.